A Letter To My Ex-Girlfriend

Assalamualaikum.
I'm writing this to say I Miss You.
And if u do miss me, just give me a call.
i would appreciate your effort.
thanks to have ur time with this scum.

Dear Atikah

I promise this will be the last time I contact you without your permission and I'll keep it short since you didn't want to hear from me anyway.
I just wanted to say I know I screwed up, bad.
I also know that I cause you a lot of pain, grief, and most likely embarrassment. I wasn't listening to you, treating you right, and became a bad baby to you with a tantrum in the end. 
That was not only wrong of me but it was shameful.
I know that my irresponsible actions hurt you multiple times and made you feel that I did not care, appreciate, or really love you as well as hurt you but I do belong to you whenever and wherevenr you want me.  
I wish I could change what I did. But I can't.
So I understand if you hate me or if I even disgust you.
I also understand if you feel you can't trust me or if you feel I am just bad for you.
I agree that dumping/ignoring me was the right thing to do.
In the state I was in, I wasn't fit for anyone.
But believe me when I say am so sorry for what I did to you, did to us.
I ruined a wonderful thing we had together and probably for good.
At least I can say that the pain of losing you made forced me to realize what was wrong with me and now I can fix it.
I just wish I didn't have to lose you to see it.
Atikah, trust me when I say that I never wanted be that kind of person, especially to you, Atikah and that I am going to hate myself for it for a long time.
You mean more to me then anyone else and I never wanted to hurt you.
You are the one I love and because of you I found a reason to change who I use to be.
I know it is probably too late but would you consider having a conversation with me?
There is no obligation but I thought maybe we could settle our differences or at least talk through them.
We solve the problems occured.And if our life together ends here, I still wouldn't trade it for the world. 
I had some truly wonderful times with you in the year we were together. 
It is been 2 years we were together.
Tears.
Happiness that we had, I'll never forget it.
You have given me so much dreams and hope though.
You made me feel so loved.
You will always have a place in my heart. 

Hope you are well and in a better place then me.

Love,
Hassan